Gratitude Project: Day 3: Chaos
June 10th 2008 02:02
I am grateful for chaos. I realized in my middle age thanks to friends and family that kid me mercilessly that I am an "order freak". (Those who know me in real time are laughing that I actually admitted it). I know that sometimes order can be suffocating. My thinking was too rigid and what hit me like a ton of bricks was that the order I desired for so many years might have actually been a reaction against the threat of chaos. I had been imposing order nervously from the outside, pushing away the notion that chaos in all it's forms was a bad thing. That kind of order isn’t real. It can be harsh and heartless.
The "New and Improved" me is cautiously accepting chaos so every day I have to rediscover and reevaluate what my heart really wants before my sense of chaos eases. I find reason for hope in my confusion and I tolerate the push pull of head (reason and order)and heart (chaos personified). I recently decided to trust the universe to know what the hell it was doing.
I recognize that I need chaos in the right places and in the right ways. Good chaos makes for good order and vice versa. Both are essential (so I hear). If I nurture chaos and order as two facets of the same process, I just might experience life in all its particularity and immediacy, I do not need to define and classify everything, but rather let it show itself in the midst of its rich and abundant uncertainty.
Image by Dave Pearson used under a Creative Commons license
The "New and Improved" me is cautiously accepting chaos so every day I have to rediscover and reevaluate what my heart really wants before my sense of chaos eases. I find reason for hope in my confusion and I tolerate the push pull of head (reason and order)and heart (chaos personified). I recently decided to trust the universe to know what the hell it was doing.
I recognize that I need chaos in the right places and in the right ways. Good chaos makes for good order and vice versa. Both are essential (so I hear). If I nurture chaos and order as two facets of the same process, I just might experience life in all its particularity and immediacy, I do not need to define and classify everything, but rather let it show itself in the midst of its rich and abundant uncertainty.
Image by Dave Pearson used under a Creative Commons license
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Comment by katyzzz
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Comment by Miswanderlust
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I try to leave the chaos alone!
Mis
Comment by katyzzz
Photography Tips
MS Paint Art
Comment by Miswanderlust
Killer Beats
Ramble On
Hipnotherapy
That is why no one reads my posts! Good thing I write for my amusement and to pass along information.
Mis
Comment by Lilla
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Its a buzzzzz isn;t it?
Now Ill share something with you that I just read this morning (Ha! just love sychronicity... proof too that sometimes slowing things down and taking that pause can be sooo beneficial for many : not that I have by choice.. *hergm* you know the story )... anyeewho...
Thew Guru says; All personal growth involves Change and Chaos.
He says: personal growth is the process of responding positively to chaos and change...it involves risk as you step from the known to the unknown.
All your growth will depend on your activity.
Your strength and growth will come only through continuous effort and struggle.
There will be no development without effort.
Trouble and the chaos it brings are the common denominator of living.
It is the great equalizer of life.
Your trials, your sorrows and your griefs will develop you.
When good or bad fortune comes your way, you must give it meaning and transform it into something of value.
What happens to you is not as important as your reaction to what is happening.
Comment by Miswanderlust
Killer Beats
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Wow! Thanks gal! I printed your comment so that I can reread it and really "sit in it!" I want it to be magnificent too!
Happy Chaos...
This is a great title for a post!
Mis